What feeds your feelings of
resentment/anger/jealousy/frustration/shame/fear/doubt/sadness/insecurities/etc?
How do you combat those negative
feelers?
Why do you let the negative
thoughts rest in your mind at all? How
can you take the fuel away from the fire when it seems to be an uncontrolled
mess; spreading fast like wildfire?
Once upon a time, not all that long
ago, I would drink the negative feelers away.
If I was having a bad day, I
would have multiple drinks and forget about whatever negative feelings were
creeping in. *I still enjoy having drinks with my hubby and friends, but I don’t
reach for a beer whenever I’m feeling down.*
Or, sometimes I would pretend the
feelings that were building up inside of me weren’t really there at all. Like if I pretended not to be hurt/sad/mad,
that I wouldn’t feel the feelings at all. Fake it until you make it, right? This contributed to the wall that I built to
protect myself. I wouldn’t let many
people inside the wall around my heart. Some would probably suggest that I have
never/will never let anyone completely in.
I’m a work in progress, you know;)
So last night, I was struggling
with these thoughts on how to cope. What
is the best way to cope when you are fighting demons in your head? What coping strategies can I pass on to the
monsters? I mean you can't really tell
kids to go get a beer when they are upset, that's not "appropriate",
right?!?
So, what coping skills do you use?
Do you attempt to eliminate the things that feed the negative feelers?
Concentrate on the positives instead?
I was even going to start a
facebook thread…until I opened my Jesus Calling book!
December 29: "Trust Me with
every fiber of your being! What I can accomplish in and through you is
proportional to how much you depend on Me... I care as much about your tiny
trust-steps through daily life as about your dramatic leaps of faith...
Consistently trusting in me is vital..."
It continues to talk about putting
your faith in Him. Well, DUH!! Why didn’t I think of that sooner!?!
HELLO!?!? COPING SKILL #1 and ONLY! It’s been directly in front of, behind, beside
me, and inside of me all along.
So, I took my Jesus Calling book
and read the wise devotional. I opened another
devotional from one of my forever friends next. I sat in the quiet. **I used to
HATE quiet. I’m guessing it’s because I
didn’t really like myself. When it was
quiet in my heart and head, it was easy for my mind to fill with thoughts of guilt, sadness, not being worthy.** Last night, I sat in the quiet and prayed for light. Light to cast out the
darkness in my heart. Light to take away the bad feelers and open my heart to
all of the goodness. Light that I know
He provides for me whenever I ask. In
both the tiny trust-steps through daily life and in the dramatic leaps of faith,
He is there. ALWAYS.
I can teach that coping method to
the monsters! I invite you to try it! He’s
actually a pretty cool dude, if you get to know Him. He loves it when I am quiet and still. It’s usually when we have the best
conversations. Where we have our most
meaningful conversations. Where I am filled with ways that I can change the
world. One tiny idea at a time, one small heart at a time, through
and for Him, I choose light.
CHOOSE LIGHT.
XOXO,
(Thumper;))
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