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Faith Journal Part 2

The two words we (the youth group got to pick the words this time) picked to find verses that are meaningful to them are HAPPY and ANGRY.

I asked the youth to look up at least one verse that has/will help them get through a period of their life when they are feeling Happy and one that they enjoy reading when they are feeling angry.  When we meet again, we will discuss the scriptures that we selected and add to our own faith journal.

{In an attempt to make the youth understand that I truly care about them, I have attended a girls soccer game and a volleyball game (hoping to get a boys soccer game next week). I think visibility is important when you're at the difficult high school age and hopefully they will recognize that I'm there for their fun events and be more willing to share their not so fun events with me;)}

Back to the faith journals!!

I have been working on HAPPY and ANGRY a little bit, but started another part of my journal.  I'm calling it "Prayer is the Pipeline to God"!  I split my journal into three parts and this will be my 2nd part. 

In this section, I plan to write stories/scripture/quotes that make me realize I am HIS pipeline.  YOU are too!  (Pipeline is Nan's word, so it's only natural that the first pipeline entry is relating to her)

 

My dearest Nan,

I hope you understand how much I love you.  Just thinking about you brings a smile to my face.  On many of my bad days you have showed up, in His time, just in time to save me from my despair.

Since you requested us to pay it forward rather than buying you a gift, I have completed your request.  I know you don’t know much about FB, but this is what I posted:

“Oh, Oh, Oh, Almost forgot!! Nan requested to pay it forward instead of buying her a gift...Remember, she's what I want to be when I grow up!! 

So, anyways, I thought about what I wanted to do to pay it forward. I want to surprise a few people that need a pick me up. The first 3 people that send me a private message that includes a little bit of why a FRIEND OF YOURS (Can't request for yourself...sorry, that's the only rule) needs a pick me up will get a surprise from me...if I don't know your friend, include an address to send it to!”

Well, this is what came of it since I know how you love to see how He works, how He uses us a pipeline, how if we focus on Him each one of us can make a huge difference in this crazy world.

The first request came from my preschool teachrt.  Her request was simple, but SO full of emotion. She said that her brother, misses my dad more than I will ever know. So, in your birthday honor, I'm going to make a pillow out of one of my dad's old tshirts:) The kids are all about sewing lately...we might enjoy it more than her brother! :) Thanks for the inspiration...tears of remembrance and so much love!!

            The next request came from an aunt.

I saw your post about a pay it forward in honor of  Nan. The person that I think could use a pick me up would be my nephew's wife. Early in their pregnancy they found out that the baby boy they were carrying has complications with his chromosomes. They made the choice to continue the pregnancy even knowing the outcome would be he would not survive. He was born on August 1 & died 57 minutes later. She got her wish to hold him in her arms and show him her unending love. She has continued to pump milk even after his death to help other mothers and babies in need. She is having a hard time and is still very full of emotions and is now preparing to go back to work soon. 

They named him Bentley Robert.

I was there when he was born and the hospital had an organization Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep come in and take photos and they also had a close friend of theirs who sat quietly in the corner and took photos that are so full of love and emotion. It still breaks my heart and makes me realize how lucky I am to have the two healthy monsters that I do.

Nan, in honor of your birthday, I ordered a bracelet with "Mother to an Angel Bentley Robert 8-1-14" inscribed on the inside and plan to send the Mommy a card that we are praying for her and her sweet little family.

The final requests came from Petunia:

Sunshine could use a pick me up. She has worked extra this week & is dealing with health issues dad has. Rainbow was in the hospital this week;)

For Sunshine, I invited her over to pizza with a couple other friends tonight.  I think she probably could use some girl time the most.  I plan to make some cookies and drop them off to Rainbow this weekend along with a cute note;) EDIT: MORE ON THIS PIPELINE STORY LATER.

All of this simply because I love you and hope you have the best year yet. 

Happy Belated Birthday, Nan!!  I hope I grow up to be half as amazing as you are!!

Love, Laura

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I truly believe if we are still and quiet, we can be used as a pipeline.  Prayer is the Pipeline to God.

I will not share all of my pipelines here on the blog, but thought this would give you a good idea of what I was thinking...

Also, I have not completed the pillow and have not sent the bracelet yet, so please don't post this to facebook. Just for the faith journal followers!

All my love,

What is Your Favorite Direction?

I am married to someone who has an invisible compass on the end of his nose. He will say to me, kiddingly (because he knows I struggle with N, E, S & W) “remember that house on Perry Street, you know the one, it sits north east to the red house on the west end of the south of the blue house?” I usually end up saying, “you mean catty corner? Is it catty corner from the water plant? Is it a pretty green house with white trim? Red door? You know, across from the empty lot?” Directions for him come so very easy.

I love the fact that directions are also used when it comes to theatre. Nothing more rewarding when one of my theatre kiddos realizes that there is a difference between stage left, stage right, upstage, down stage and of course backstage. They are most familiar with backstage because of course, that’s where most of their hilarity ensues while the director is not looking.

Cooking directions? For the most part, I am good with those. Other than the occasional old recipe that I may come across (thanks Grandma!) that tells me to put in a “handful of this, or a pinch of that” which of course makes me think, “I have small hands. Do I put in more? Or do I just do the handful?” 

Taking direction is a whole other subject. Supervisors tell us what needs to be completed for a job; parents give us a set of rules and regulations to follow in hopes that we will learn something about discipline and as well as becoming responsible adults. We have to abide by law or pay the penalty. Coaches, teachers, policemen, anyone in charge are people we have to listen to and take direction and hopefully, take it well. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. When I don’t, my mouth is usually the first thing that gets me into some type of hot water.

So..do you have a favorite direction? I never did until this past weekend. And honestly? It is something that I really never even thought about.

My soon to be five-year-old granddaughter Lucy had the following conversation with her mother late last week: “Mom, what is your favorite direction?”

Courtney, my daughter, said the question caught her off guard and she answered, “I don’t know.” But knowing that Lucy had something to say about this subject she asked, “Lucy, what is your favorite direction?”

Lucy answered, quite simply, “Left.”

Courtney then asked her why left was her favorite direction and she said, as only a four year old can say, “Because when we drive to Woodville, we turn left onto the big road (Route 20) then we turn left onto the next road (Lime Road), then we turn left again (First Street) and then we turn left one more time, into Mimi’s driveway.”

Lucy’s favorite direction is left because it brings her directly to my house.

I’ve given that sweet sentiment so much thought over the past few days. First, I am amazed that she counts the left turns and realizes where she is going. Second, I cannot describe the love that is in that statement and how it makes me feel. Knowing that she delights in those left turns because it brings her to my back porch, into my house, onto my lap gives me the greatest joy known to any grandparent. And third, it has given me a whole new insight to my favorite direction.

Up.

I love the feeling your belly gets when you fly up into the sky on a swing.

There is nothing like getting up out of your seat to scream like a teenager (when you are closer to 56) when you see your favorite Beatle looking at you in the eye, pointing at you and giving you a grin. (Love you, Ringo).

Up is how I feel when I spend time with girlfriends. No matter what is going on in my life or theirs, getting together for some laughter (which we do, in droves) is something I cherish, and most importantly, crave.

Up is the direction I head each night with my little dog, she runs ahead of me, waiting at the top of the stairs and then jumps up into my lap when I sit down just waiting for me to smoosh her face with kisses (don’t judge).

Grabbing onto my husband’s hand as he pulls me up out of reclining position on the ground or in a chair makes me happy to know that he is able to not only pull me up, but wants to pull me up and then into an embrace.

I have tall, strong, son-in-laws who are both upbeat and happy men. I love looking up at their faces as they gaze back at their wives, the love evident on their faces.

Up is where I lifted my own babies when they were little, arms outreaching, smiling, asking only as my Molly could ask,”Uppy –do, Mommy, uppy-do.” (we still laugh about her saying those words to me).

My Grandma used to tell her grandchildren “I will let you sit on my lap until your feet touch the ground.” And when our feet touched the ground, she would lift up our legs and tuck them under her arm so that they only touched her and she could hold us that much longer. I’ve said the same to my own to little loves, Lucy and AJ. This Mimi loves lifting them up, putting them up on my lap after they have woken up from a nap.

Up is where we look when we need guidance, or reassurance…to our parents, our teachers, our bosses and most importantly, to our Father. Sometimes I search that sky, seeking out the clouds, trying to make faces or shapes out of them and realize that the vastness up there is over powering and beautiful. And I pray that those that have gone before me are also seeing my upturned face and loving me right back.

I thank Lucy, my sweet girl who has the wisdom of an old lady for giving me a head’s up that we all need direction now and again.

Yup..it’s up.

It will always be up.

What’s your favorite direction?

Lovingly written by Marcia  Busdeker

There's No Place Like Home

 The Ville, The Village, Hooterville, Woodpile, The Dirty Wood, The Cop Shop, The Speed Trap, Hoodville, Weirdville, The Town NOT to be Mistaken for Gibsontucky, The Twilight Zone, Whoville, Whatville, The Dirty, Wildville, The "Other" Woodville (not the Woodville Mall), Skullyville, Woodtucky, The Bubble, The Lime Capital of the World

Whatever you want to call it, to many of us, it's HOME.  I asked Chel for a Quincy update and during our text conversation she wrote: "I sure love Woodville and wouldn't leave it for anything!! (Except MAYBE Elmore;))"

Even if you aren't from Woodville, you can relate to the feeling of HOME.  Even after the most wonderful vacation, it is an amazing feeling when you crawl into your own bed.   

Quincy is back in her own bed!  Her sleep schedule is a bit off because of the surgery/hospital stay, but she looks pretty cozy and peaceful if you ask me! :)

 

 Everyone in the family is starting to get back to their regular routine.  Dada went back to work on Wednesday.  His place of employment has been supportive and understanding throughout the testing, delay and surgery process. The girls are so very happy to have their whole family under one roof.  Quincy is still taking Tylenol a few times a day, but happy, trying to crawl, and just as sweet as ever!!

Look at all the little mothers with their baby:)

The meals have been delish and the girls are loving the extra special attention and love. Everyone is so nice and generous...

There's no place like home!!

 Continued prayers for Q and Bauders for continued recovery!

Prayers for my warrior sister, Jacki who got her new foobs yesterday:)

Continued prayers for Erica.  I know you guys have been praying for her since I asked last week.  Her appointment did not go as well as hoped.  She has a spot of concern that the doctors are being aggressive with IN CASE it's growing.  It very possibly could be radiation effect.  Either way, please continue to pray for her.  That her new treatment is tolerable and is able to get that concerning spot under control.

Lots of prayers for Tara Young...for her discharge from the hospital, for peace of mind after missing most of the trip she took so long to plan, and complete healing so we can drown out the sorrows of the rotten vacation in wine when her family returns from Florida. 

XoXo,
 

Mean Girl for Life?

When I was younger, admittedly, I was a mean girl.  I've never watched the "Mean Girls" show, but I don't need to. I can remember joining in the mean girl talk and even when I didn't join in, I was silent and didn't stick up for the person being picked on. I only remember one incident that I was caught being a mean girl, but there were many others where I just didn't get caught.

Now that I have daughters that I'm trying to raise into kind and caring young ladies, I'm wondering IF you can grow out of being a mean girl? And if you can't, can you teach your daughters how to be different?

The other night one of my daughter's friends was visibly upset.  I approached her and told her not to worry about it.  She said, "But, Cruella said it was all my fault".  I'm thinking my response was probably still a response a mean girl would give: "Don't worry about Cruella, she makes mistakes all the time!"

My next line was that it is a team sport and it takes the entire team to win AND lose.  It wasn't her mistake that lost the game, but the mistakes by EVERYONE on the team.  **A MUCH more effective way to boost Sunshine back up without singling out Cruella**

But, my first instinct was to attack Cruella.  Defense and deflection do not help the problem at hand and really they only fuel future animosity.

Another protection mechanism I fully utilize is sarcasm.  Although I think it's AWESOME when Lilly uses sarcasm properly, it's probably a life skill that is NOT necessary if I'm trying to raise well rounded, anti-bullying children.

Maintaining many life-long relationships where sarcasm, deflection, and defense are still very much alive, I do think it's possible to have good relationships with these protective mechanisms in place.  Most of my very closest relationships are the ones where these descriptive words ring the most true to me.  But, wouldn't it be better if we didn't have to use them?

Sarcasm is second nature to me.  Even though I have been working on being the best form of me, I ALWAYS return to sarcasm when I am feeling wounded or broken. Over the years, many people have asked me: Are you being serious or sarcastic??   Sometimes there is a fine line between joking and down right mean.

What do you think? Mean girl for life?  Can you break the mold?

This, right here, is my best mean girl face!! ;)

XOXO,

Laura

Over the Hospital, Over-Correction and Over the Moon: Quincy Update

Quincy is telling her doctors that she is OVER the hospital.  They removed the drainage tube this morning without any complications.  She is eating, sleeping, AND SMILING!! She still has one IV in her tootsie, but it's a "just in case" type thing at this point.

 

She will be released SOON...everyone is hoping for tomorrow (Monday September 22nd:))  They told the Bauders to anticipate a 5-7 day stay.  Q did great and is hoping she landed herself an early release on the first day possible!!

 

In an attempt to prevent explaining why one eye still appears a little higher/bulge a bit, I'm going to attempt to explain the overcorrection.  Since Quincy's plate on the top left side of her skull was fused together, it caused depression on the left side of her sweet little face.  This was most noticeable in her eyes since one side seemed to bulge out a little bit. When the plastic surgeons were operating, they purposely over corrected in anticipation of the ONCE DEPRESSED (YAY FOR ROOM IN HER SKULL TO LEARN AND GROW) side not growing at the same rate as the non-effected side.  In Quincy's case, the left side was depressed and the right side will continue to grow normally. 

 

Now, it is almost MORE noticeable than it was before the surgery.  This is done purposely to allow for things to even out naturally as Quincy continues to grow.  But, her forehead and eyebrow line looks GREAT!!! The rest if her will catch up:)

 

Although, I understand Chelle's concern and desire for others to understand, I'm positive that all of you that have been following will agree with me: QUINCY IS BEAUTIFUL.   Both before and after the surgery she is just perfect!!

In the arms of her Daddy:

 

And in the tender embrace of her Mommy:

 

She is more beautiful than words can express.

 

The Bauders are still HOPING to be released tomorrow, but the doctors will make their decision during rounds tomorrow morning.  Even if they have to stay another day, they are OVER THE MOON that the surgery is over.  OVER THE MOON that they are able to hold their sweet baby girl again.  They are over the moon to see the other three daughters that have been missing their Mommy, Daddy and baby sister this week.

 

I know they are over the moon full of gratitude for the prayers, meals to come, surprises to be delivered.  I know that this has been a rollercoaster of a week for ALL of the Bauders and Andrew family members.  When they do come home, please be respectful of their wishes.  Text/Call if you want to visit and if they say, "not yet"  or "can you wait?", don't be offended. They have a lot on their plate right now!! They know everyone wants to hug and squeeze them ASAP and they can't wait to feel the love we've all been sending!! 

Praying for continued sunshine and smiles! 

Extra prayers tonight and Monday for Erica (Jacobs) Guess. She has a big appointment at the James Center. MRI to make sure her brain isn't growing;) Met her sweet momma this weekend and they all need to feel some of the love too!! Appointments are so stressful and anxiety filled. Pray, pray, pray!!

All my love, 

Princess Quincy B

The beautiful Princess Quincy Bauder was born at the end of February.

Quincy was born with a rare condition called craniosynostosis. While kissing every last inch of her beautiful face, Chelle and Mike (Quincy's parents) noticed that directly above one of her eyes looked just a tad different than the other side. They questioned the doctors about it. Due to their intuition and persistence, it was caught very early. Since the initial doctor appointment, it has been a time of uncertainty.

It has been confirmed that Quincy has a mild form of this "condition in which one or more of the fibrous sutures in an infant skull prematurely fuses by turning into bone, thereby changing the growth pattern of the skull. Because the skull cannot expand perpendicular to the fused suture, it compensates by growing more in the direction parallel to the closed sutures." (Wikipedia)

One out of four of Q's sutures is fused together. In order for her brain to have the room to grow properly, Quincy needs to have surgery. The surgery is a lengthy one that is very involved. The surgeons will make an incision from ear to ear and remove the whole front portion/bone of her skull and reshape it. They will put the skull back together and put in dissolvable plates where it used to be fused together.

This surgery is very involved requires a neurosurgeon, plastic surgeon and two teams of nurses that will huddle around this sweet infant princess. It will require blood transfusions, a breathing tube, iv, etc. The surgery will take place at the Cleveland Clinic. The family will need support of different kinds when Quincy has surgery, but most of all prayers!

On September 17th (after postponing the surgery once), they performed the very involved surgery on Quincy...

They took Quincy back to the OR. They took her back in her jammies and as they were carrying her, she was trying to pull off the glasses and surgical mask of the sweet 32 year old mother who understands our pain (AKA the anesthesiologist). They will put Quincy under using a mask and then do all of the IV's, breathing and feeding tubes. They wait until she is under so that she doesn't even know it's all happening. She will most likely stay under anesthetic the entire night tonight until they are ready to remove the breathing tube tomorrow. (Breathing tubes are foreign and uncomfortable to an adult, but can be explained as necessary...Quincy would not understand the need for the tube and would most likely try to rip it out.)

Everything was going as planned until...

They had a meeting with the neurosurgeon (who they love), and there was a minor complication but it is now under control but that means the surgery is taking a little bit longer than anticipated. We still have a couple more hours to go. (OVER 10 HOURS IN SURGERY)

There was a tear in the Dura around her brain and her brain swelled a little bit. They had to wait for the swelling to go down so they could stitch the Dura back up. The adored and loved Dr. Recinos says not to worry. She just wants to make sure the beautiful Q is perfect. Always best to error on the safe side.

The doctors and staff want to make sure there's no bleeding or not too much bruising in her brain in that spot.

September 18th (Day after surgery)
Quincy had a good night. One little episode where she was "fighting" the breathing tube, but they were able to get her settled down and gave her some additional pain medicine. She has been resting peacefully since this little episode.

HER CT SCAN CAME BACK ALLLLLLLLL CLEAR. She is expected to make a full and complete recovery.

She is connected to a bunch of monitors and everything is reading exactly as it should. Today they plan to *HOPEFULLY* remove the breathing tube. Let's all pray that she is able to breathe on her own.
If they are able to sucessfully remove the breathing tube, they will decrease the pain medicine to let her wake up a little bit at a time. We are hoping that she might even get to eat a little today in some way (might have to be via the ng tube or a bottle, but the hope is to let her eat today if possible).

Because of all the wires, especially the drainage tube in the back of her precious little head, Mommy and Dada probably will not get to hold her yet today...BUT, the kind nurses (Molly in particular) are trying to work out a way to let them co-sleep and lay next to the little princess.

She is so sweet and beautiful, but swollen all over. The swelling was expected and will get worse before it gets better, but it's heartbreaking to see a little one this way.

Thanks to God's work and the vigilant and noisy praying from the hearts of so many, she has made it through the hardest part. Chelle: I had to stop myself from cartwheeling in the hallways last night when the surgery was finally over!!

Angi is taking wonderful care of Quincy's older sisters. They were all bouncing around and smiling as they left for school this morning. Missy is home safe and sound is off to work today.

The surgeons, nurses and staff have been amazing and even though we are only just beginning the recovery process, we are thankful.


The beautiful princess has opened her eyes for Mom and dada (HOW DARE SHE SAY DADA FIRST WHEN MOM FEEDS HER DAY AND NIGHT!!). The doctors and staff have reassured Mom and Dad that Quinnie is aware that they are there with her.

THANKFUL AND BLESSED, We ask for continued prayers of healing and strength. 

September 18th PM:

The worst is over, but the Bauders still need us praying...Tonight, I want you to invite your child(ren) to join you.

Why, you ask?

Because all Quincy's Mommy and Dada want to do is cuddle their sweet baby up and hold her close, kiss her sweet cheeks and love on her, but they can't. Quincy is waking up periodically and crying for her parents, but they can't do anything. Completely helpless, they have to sing and talk to her in an attempt to calm her down. Quincy is used to Chelle and Mike jumping at her first cry and I'm sure she's confused as to why they can't just pick her up and she's looking at them with her swollen little eyes...

And it's breaking Mommy and Dada's heart.

Good news: They were able to take out the breathing tube and Q is breathing on her own with a little oxygen in her nasal cannula. This is the progress we are all praying for.

Quincy, Mommy and Dada are all staying the night in the ICU again tonight with hopes of being moved to step down tomorrow. The swelling in Quincy's face is getting worse, but the rest of her body is improving. This is what the doctors expected, but it does NOT make Mommy and Dada feel any better seeing their little angel this way. Both of them can't wait to see her beautiful face without the swelling.

Chelle is hoping and PRAYING that she will get to feed her late this evening and lay in bed with her.

In case she doesn't get to, please lay in bed with your monsters and say a prayer for Quinnie, Chelle, Mike, Greta, Macey and Zoey  

September 19th:

Some good news this am! It's been a busy nite and am. I fed Quinnie a bottle around 10 last nite and she sucked it down so they let me nurse her laying next to her and she's doing so well with it. ❤️

This morning they helped me hold her in my arms and feed her--the best ever. I'm still in her bed holding her and it's heaven to have her in my arms so close.

She's going to get rid of some of the tubes this am--her catheter, another iv (so she'll just have 1left on each foot), the monitors and blood pressure cuff, and the oxygen tubing. So all she'll have is the 2 ivs and the drainage tube in the back of her head, which is great improvement.

Her left eye is swollen shut now too, and she keeps trying to rub at them as if to clean them out so she can see. It's so sad. She's rather fussy, but her cry sounds better and it's good for her to squirm around and make some noise. She's had morphine and Tylenol within the last hour but slept pretty well for not having had any since 2 am.

We are moving to the step down unit once all her tubes are off, so that too is good.

It's going to be a couple rough days because it's hard for her to understand why she can't open her eyes, and now that she's becoming more alert I think she's feeling more uncomfortable. But hopefully by Sunday enough of the swelling will be down that she'll be able to open those pretty blue eyes again. ❤️

The sun is shining and the healing is happening. Thanks so much for the continued love and support

 

September 20:

 

Last night wasn't a great night for Quincy. The monsters tried to come out. When they transferred her from the PICU to step down, they decided to stop the pain meds or at least start to wean her off of them. They wanted to wait until Q was showing signs of discomfort before they gave her the pain medicine...but they weren't thinking about the monsters that like to come out at night. By 11pm the poor baby would not eat and was not feeling well...at all. She wouldn't even take Tylenol at this point and they had to give her a Tylenol suppository around 5am this morning. TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE. The monsters didn't go back under the bed until sunrise (and a new nurse who agreed that Q needed a little morphine in her IV to take the edge off).

Quincy did not get much rest...and neither did Mommy and Daddy.

BUT, the sun is shining now. They have ordered alternating Tylenol and oxycodone to prevent this from happening again. If Quincy is feeling better, they have the option to skip a dose here and there, but at least they have the option if her pain starts to get out of control again. KEEP THE MONSTERS AWAY TONIGHT!

Quinnie has a new doctor on this floor and the neoro and plastics team are checking in less and less. She finally ate well in Mommy's arms after refusing most of the night. HER SWEET BLUE EYES ARE PEEKING OUT EVEN MORE WITH THE FRESH SUNSHINE OF THE DAY.

From Chelle: Thanks to everyone for the unbelievable volume of support and prayers. It gives us such courage, strength and peace of heart to know Quincy is being lifted up by so many in prayer. We are truly blessed!! 

So, that's the story...quick and unedited, but available to read!